Not Your Typical Goodbye

In the final episode of 'Not Your Typical Desi,' the host reflects on the journey and evolution experienced through creating the podcast. Initially started in survival mode, the show served as a powerful outlet and lifeline for discussing unspoken aspects of life as a queer, disabled, neurodivergent South Asian. Now ready to move forward, the host reveals a new path as a psychic medium, offering personal readings. They also assert boundaries, addressing harm caused by another practitioner, Sydnie Napoleon/A Raging Witchcraft, and warn others about her practices. The episode concludes with a tarot reading.

Transcript

 Okay. Hi everyone. Welcome back to not your typical Desi. I know it's been quite a while. It's been I think about a month and a half, almost two months since I dropped an episode. As you probably guessed from the title, this is the final episode of not your typical Desi. Even saying that feels surreal.

My throat's tight, my heart's heavy, but I'm ready because the show has been so much more than a podcast. It's been a Mero, a diary, a lifeline, a spell. It held me through grief, confusion, rage. Rebirth was the space I built when I didn't know where else to be. And now it's time to let it go with love and with truth.

I started this podcast in survival mode. I needed to be heard. I needed to say the things no one else was saying in the spaces I existed in as a queer, disabled, neurodivergent, south Asian person, finding my way back to myself. And this podcast gave me that voice, but I've changed the version of me who started.

This is not the version of me speaking to you now. I am not fighting to be heard anymore. I found my power. I've stepped into my gifts, and I'm ready to move forward.

There were moments where this podcast felt like a lifeline, but there were also moments where it felt like a drain. I gave the show my time, my tears, my truth, and sometimes it felt like I was shouting into a void like I was giving and giving with root, with no real echo back. There were people I thought would support me who didn't.

Conversations that never happened, dreams that didn't take shape. But even with all that, I don't regret it because this podcast made me who I am. It burned me down and built me back up. So now I'm stepping into something that took me a long time to say out loud, I am a psychic medium. I am not becoming one.

I am one. And embracing that truth has been the most freeing, joyful, fulfilling thing I've ever done. Terrell was my entry point. It cracked open something ancient in me, and now I get to channel messages, support others, connect with spirit, and it feels like breathing. I am still here. I'm still offering guidance, just not in podcast form.

If you'd like to book a reading with me, you can find my form in my link tree, which is in the bio of all my social media pages. Whether you're looking for clarity, comfort, or connection, I would be honored to hold space for you.

That being said, there's something I have kept, that I kept vague in, my last episode out of not wanting to cause drama, but that silence has only protected someone who has actively caused me harm. So let me be clear and say this now with my full trust, the practitioner who harmed me is Sydnie Napoleon, the owner of A Raging Witchcraft.

No, I went into a lot of detail of what happened to us in the last episode, but from then she publicly admitted to putting me in a freezer spell and an extra, not outwardly, not outrightly, because why would she, it was, she posted. Those subliminal videos, a couple days after that podcast episode dropped, and I don't believe in coincidences.

And I know retaliation when I see that. When I see it. She claims to offer love work and spouse services, but what she really offers is dependency, manipulation, and energetic control. And from what I've witnessed, and I say this carefully, there's a racial dynamic to who she targets. All of her glowing reviews are from white folks.

But the harm, the retaliation, the emotional manipulation, from what I've seen, it seems to be directed toward Bipoc clients. That includes using ingredients like Jezebel Root and coyote bones, both deeply tied to cultures and practices she does not belong to.

She profits off of cultures she disrespects and spiritually attacks clients who question her. I have the receipts, and if you wanna see the truth, all you have to do is search. Hashtag a erasing witch on TikTok. Everything's there. I am not saying this out of bitterness. I'm saying this because Sydney Napoleon is dangerous, and you deserve to know that

I reclaim my name. I reclaim my energy. I reclaim my voice. I reclaim my joy. I reclaim my magic. Any spell cast on me. Without love, without truth, without consent, I undo. I dissolve, I return to source. With this, I close the door and I open the next one.

So this is it. The end of night, your typical Desi, but not the end of me, not the end of my story, not the end of the magic. I came here to share. I am walking away with peace, with power, with clarity, and with so much gratitude for you, for this space, and for the version of me who created it. Thank you for listening.

Thank you for holding space. Thank you for witnessing me. To those of you who reached out after vulnerable episodes, who held me in my grief or told me the show made you feel seen, thank you. You reminded me. I was never actually alone. And if you've ever trusted someone who hurt you, if you've ever had to reclaim your voice after being silenced, if you're walking away from something sacred because it no longer serves, you know that you are not weak, you're wise, and you are also not alone.

This chapter is closing, but my work continues. My voice continues, and spirit. Spirit always finds a way to speak through me. So if you ever find me again in a new form, in a new container, just know it was always meant to be.

With that all being said, I did want to close this episode by pulling a couple cards. So for whoever's listening to this, whether it's the day I release it, or months or even years from now, this is your message. Spirit, what does the person hearing this most need to know right now?

Okay,

so

we have death reversed. 10 of Pentacles reversed strength reversed. Five of Pentacles reversed the moon upright. The star reversed the empress re the magician upright. Four of wands upright. Three of wands upright and nine of swords reversed. So death reversed. 10 of Pentacles reversed and strength reversed.

You're holding onto something that wants to be released. Maybe it's a vision of family, of security, of the life you were supposed to have, but cling to it is keeping you stuck and you're exhausted from pretending you're okay. Let yourself be tired. Let yourself grieve. This isn't weakness. It's a spiritual transition.

One, you do not have to rush. And then we have five of Pentacles reversed. You are not alone as you think you've been walking through spiritual winter, but help is closer than it seems. This is a shift out of whack and into slow healing. Look for the people, the signs, the warmth that remains. There is a door.

There is a way back in four of wands. Upright joy is still possible. Celebration is still yours. Even in the rackage, even in the letting go. This card is Spirit saying there's still light ahead. Keep going, the moon upright and the star reversed. You are moving through confusion, through illusion, through fear.

You might not know what's real. You might not trust yourself, but the way forward is an in clarity. It's an intuition let go of needing to understand everything instead. Feel your way through. Your inner light is dim, but it is not gone.

The magician upright and the empress upright, you still have the power. You still have the ability to create the life you dream of, and now you're being reminded again. Let your magic come from love. Let your growth be gentle. You are not a machine, you are a garden. You don't have to prove your power. You only have to use it well.

Nine of swords reversed. You've carried so much fear, so many sleepless nights. This is your sign that it's time to let some of that go. You are not doomed. You are not cursed. This is just a moment, a hard one, but not the end. Three of Juan's upright. Your future is still calling. The ships are still coming in.

You're not late, you're not behind. You're in the becoming and it's working.

So if you're listening right now and you feel tired, if you feel like everything is changing too fast or not fast enough, if you've lost your way, your light, your confidence, this is your message, you are still on your path. The grief does not cancel the joy. The confusion does not cancel your truth, and the fear does not cancel your power.

You are not broken. You are breaking open. So breathe and take the next step. The future is still yours. So take what resonates. Leave what does not. Let this be your thread, your reminder that you are never alone, not in your grief, not in your healing, not in your power.

This has been not your typical, Dee and I have never ever been typical goodbye.